A few photos that highlight the festive spirit in my family and in the city. Happy Christmas and New year! x
Friday, 30 December 2016
Tuesday, 13 December 2016
Goodbye Sheila and comfort zone
This time last week, I was sat in A&E waiting to be checked out for whiplash from a car accident. Now I am writing about it.. still trips me out. (poor Sheila the smart car is officially out of use at the moment, highly inconvenient)
No one teaches you what to do if you crash a vehicle. your mind goes as empty as the road was. My brain and body were in shock, and it took me a few seconds to stop and process, this is when the trauma set in and I began hyperventilating and crying. This became worse as I saw the damage to the car and I really began to feel weak. It felt like I was in a movie and I had just acted out a stunt, which by the way the car was forced onto the pavement, you would think it was planned.
Anyway, as my sister got there and consoled me I began to calm down. She took charge for a bit and called my dad who is good at keeping his head in situations like this and immediately he said he would leave work and come to see me. My two friends from uni came pretty much straight away and encouraged me to go to A&E, even though at that time I didn't feel any pain. The news travelled fast and I had messages from people wishing me well and calls with my family. I felt like the luckiest person in the world, just for the fact no one else was hurt and that I had such an outpouring of love from others. As silly as it sounds, sometimes it takes a tragedy to shake people up into living in the moment and to be genuine. I felt no anger to the day, just exhaustion of emotion. However I did feel frustrated looking back as I didn't get any witnesses which would obviously help my case presently, but what good is it looking back and wishing you had done something else? I was just glad I could walk away from it.
This last week was a rollercoaster ride, with our fine art collective at uni fundraising as well as breaking up from this semester, I felt like it was overload. With time now to reflect on everything, it's good to be moving forward proactively and trying to stay light-hearted in the sometimes mundane and joy killing moments of life. Perhaps what im trying to say is a big thank you. To everyone who reached out to me, or even thought of me- it highlighted the true fragility of life, in all it's fear we still find light. That's a comforting thought to leave this on I think.
B x
Anyway, as my sister got there and consoled me I began to calm down. She took charge for a bit and called my dad who is good at keeping his head in situations like this and immediately he said he would leave work and come to see me. My two friends from uni came pretty much straight away and encouraged me to go to A&E, even though at that time I didn't feel any pain. The news travelled fast and I had messages from people wishing me well and calls with my family. I felt like the luckiest person in the world, just for the fact no one else was hurt and that I had such an outpouring of love from others. As silly as it sounds, sometimes it takes a tragedy to shake people up into living in the moment and to be genuine. I felt no anger to the day, just exhaustion of emotion. However I did feel frustrated looking back as I didn't get any witnesses which would obviously help my case presently, but what good is it looking back and wishing you had done something else? I was just glad I could walk away from it.
This last week was a rollercoaster ride, with our fine art collective at uni fundraising as well as breaking up from this semester, I felt like it was overload. With time now to reflect on everything, it's good to be moving forward proactively and trying to stay light-hearted in the sometimes mundane and joy killing moments of life. Perhaps what im trying to say is a big thank you. To everyone who reached out to me, or even thought of me- it highlighted the true fragility of life, in all it's fear we still find light. That's a comforting thought to leave this on I think.
B x
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